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i had a bad day today. *hums bad day by daniel powter*

first, i'm trying to cope with a very bad - sore,itching throat and a croaking voice. had fever and a blocked nose. been feeling under the weather eversince mr haze spent his vacation here.

*mr haze, please shortened your holiday plans here* :-s

second, i'm trying to keep my fast in this testing condition and *sobbing*, mid-way i had to call it a defeat when my health started to deteriorate with every passing hour.

third, my milk supply dip drastically. if u ask what i had for sahur. i had rice with fishball soup and white radish and fried taugeh, 4 pcs of dates, a mug of milo cereal and 500ml of plain water.

isnt that enough to keep me going the whole day?

anyway, this was the 2nd year i had a challenging and testing time during ramadhan. last year i was pregnant and i couldnt fast. this year, i'm a new mom and also a breastfeeding mommy. and i couldnt fast the whole month again. :(

i salute those breastfeeding mommies out there who managed to fast and breastfeed at the same time. i felt like a loser. :(

i managed to fast for 2 days after which AF paid a visit and today, the 3rd day of fasting and i had to end it suddenly. :(

(hell! why am i telling the whole world im not fasting?!?! errr....i aint proud to say im not fasting but i just need the space to vent my frustrations. im sooo sooo feeeling very bluey today.)

im having a low morale as i was feeling so weak and tired and sleepy and useless. i was surfing the net for work purposes when i accidentally strayed off track... oops!:p

i ended searching for breastfeeding tips to home decor to nursing tops to accessories and i landed here at fashion accessories!!

heh! an idling mind = itchy hands.

apalagi..... online shopping lagik ler ako. i understand this was a new website, a duo creations by mother and a-schoolgoing-daughter team. not bad huh!

already placed my order for handbag charm.....i think it should look pretty on my ugly BIG handbag. :p i'll put it up when its ready.....

ok now....where should i go?

*rubs chin*

till i get that nice diaper bag i've been eyeing, i'll not stop writing and whining about it in this blog.

yoohooo!! you...you....you....yeah you lah....the harsben>!! get the hint?

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eh speaking of which, i actually wanted to rant about what i witnessed in the train while on the way home yesterday.

you see....i was once upon a time a pregnant woman. and i have a love/hate relationship being pregnant.

its love because i get the attention and concern and care and the likes that i received made me feel very happy and spoilt and pampered.

but its hate because whenever i took public transport, i was hardly offered a seat. there was at least one inconsiderate act by our own fellow citizens on board of each of the public transport i took.

- an inconsiderate passenger pushed me aside roughly to get to an empty seat in a train.

- and in a crowded bus, my toes were stepped over by a BIG,FAT man while i was trying to get to the empty seat and was somehow competing with me to get to it.

of course he won lah....im both vertically and horizontally challenged. wait till he gets pregnant one day....pfft!

- i flagged a cab and it stopped slightly ahead from where i was standing, and a young couple ran after it, opened the door, hopped in and the cab driver drove off without me.

it's really very frustrating you know especially when i felt very helpless then and i am berat mulut to scream/shout/grunt/vent my anger and frustrations.

well....anyway, back to the incident i saw in the train yesterday. a heavily pregnant woman boarded the crowded train together with me. she stood very near to the door where the 2-seater seats were. seats occupied by a young, sleepy man and an indian lady who was smiling while looking at her hp and then dialled a number, yakyakyakyak and then keep the hp back into the bag, sit back and closed her eyes.

all along, the pregnant lady looked at them (sambil jeling-jeling) and even, stand verrryyy near to the indian lady that i saw her forehead almost touched the belly of the pregnant woman. still the indian woman did not look up.

and since i cant stand the sight of the ignorant woman and i empathise with the pregnant woman, i wanted to walk over but was blocked by two very chatty women. i asked to be excuse.....but they didnt budge. perhaps they were tone deaf. funnily they can hear and reply each other....hmmm!

anyway as i tried to push aside the people that blocked my way, what happen next amazed me. i saw the pregnant woman ducked down a little and speaks "excuse, may i have your seat?"

*applaud.....applaud...applaud* beranai betol dia. :p

can imagine how embarassed the indian lady was. she gave up the seat and quickly moved away; dug into her bag and started messaging.

heh! how brave .....the pregnant lady lah.

oh yes! even the young, sleepy man woke up you know. BUT.....he continued sleeping thereafter. darn!

hmm!i wish i could speak out to this bunch of people that its not easy to carry around that "sack". as the tummy grows, it made a great impact on the pregnant woman capabilities like walking, standing, sitting and sleeping. the nearer they are to the estimated delivery date, the more challenging the daily tasks become.

long standing can cause aches on the whole body which could sometimes trigger contractions to the pregnant woman like someone i know. if terberanak while standing how? sapa nak jawab?!?!

ahhhh!! i told the harsben, "next time u see a pregnant woman, please give up your seat.."