Flying Without Wingzzz....

it's back to reality today. back to work.

shucks!

i've been away from office since 7th June to celebrate nks 1st birthday. making preparation for her birthday bash cum bbq with close family members. aside from that i had a good break and spending quality time with the apple of my eye.

it was even heavier for me to step out of the house today after nks made this statement "ma...don werk"

gawd! did she really say that?!?!

i insisted she repeat it again but fat hope. all i get was a cheeky smile followed by her giggles.

now....tell me who wouldnt wanna be a stay-at-home-mum (SAHM)!!

the sight of piling workload. hundreds of emails. numerous sticky notes on the desk make me miss home very much.

i need more break!!

it's mak's 54th birthday today!

4 days after Nurkhairina Sophia's 1st birthday.
this date used to be NKS edd (reads: estimated delivery date) otheriwse, both nenek and cucu would be celebrating their birthday together. how sweet!

to mak,
thank you for everything.
it's hard for me to say it out as the well will be gushing its water out before i complete the first sentence.
easier to pen it down and whatever happens after that is history.....

thank you for caring for lil nks while i was away at work and for loving her the way you love your own child. nothing beats your love for the lil one. the attantion and care.

we love you loads.
may Allah grant you with good health, wealth and happiness throughout your life.

you are the bestest mom and grandmother in our eyes.

NURKHAIRINA SOPHIA is ONE.

time flies....
my lil baby is now a toddler
her arrival has since brought loads of love and life to the people around her
her smile laughter and cries break the emptiness that used to fill our life

on this day, i couldnt help reminiscing the past. the day i gave birth to her. the day i was announced as the mother to an adorable bundle of joy. no tears were shed. only GOD knows how much i could cry if i could. just lotsa joy and happiness on my face.

it was fun watching her grow and meeting her milestones. it seems as if i just gave birth to her.

of course, there were hiccups as she meet her milestones like being sick and having falls. when that happened, i couldnt help putting the blame on myself and feeling inferior and helpless for causing her the pain.

she's the love of my life.

i prayed constantly for her well being, for her to be smart, grow up well, respecting elderly and doing good deeds and be a good muslimah.....amin!

my dream to quit my job and nurture her myself was all but a dream. as it is, life in singapore wasnt easy with having just one breadwinner to raise a family.

sigh.

whatever it takes, may ALLAH grant me the will, strength, patience, good health to ise her up well.

to the apple of my eye,

i love you and may you always be a happy baby as you are.

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY darling!